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Monday, March 30, 2009,6:53 PM

I am back!

Omg, life is not boring.. come to think of it. I got friends, family and school to deal with, what more can I expect? Life is full of wonderful blessings. I found out that I got more to do than I ever expected. So therefore I got to stop thinking bullshit and look forward in life. I only have one life, therefore I cant waste it just for that stupid crap. Erms.. so far my weekend was BUSY! so many has been happening at work... and how the field consultant doesnt like this crappy store; and now I can see how this whole team of lazy bums starts to work as a team. We chill, we work our butts off, it's fun at times. At least I finally learned how to wash the bathroom LMAO. After work I would either see a friend, or talk to some long time no see friends to keep in contact <3 I love them mucho-ly lols.
I have more to get done. Therefore I cant type for long lols. Lets see... work? I still need to file in my most wanted internship. I have applied to a couple of places but they are my backups... I have to create the most interesting resume tats under the spotlight lols. I don't know what I'll be doing in the summer, but I know theres alot waiting for me out there. I am going to be super busy. Either part-time work and going to school; or a full time internship if possible. Or if I am really that broke by summer, I guess I'll have to keep my current job and add a second one. As for school.. since midterms are over like finally I still have more to catch up. Been reading my management that I dont have time to catch up with my marketing book, while trying to focus in art and music history at the same time. But I know I can do it.. and somehow manage to pull out a B or higher.. hopefully. Since I was a B student, and this is my first semester in BC... I do not want anything to ruin my transcript. So much to do.. and spring break is coming YAY! Got plans with friends.. yet I have papers due right after the break and an exam.. 50 long ass questions once again. =] so busy and life is so fullfilling.. I am so happy. I guess my most happiest times are being busy.. Come to think of it, I started to like the busy times than the boredom-nothing-to-do times. Busy... I dont care if there's a billion of exams waiting for me. At least I get something out of those billion of exams that can benefit me. Yes you might think I am insane.. but I just love my busy schedule, feel so independent and so much things waiting for me.. just makes me happy. That can also keep me up from socializing and chill at the same time. =] life cannot get anymore fulfilling than this lols.
It is as if.. you studied something so hard.. or you put so much effort in a relationship or in your work.. and when the report card shows up due to your effort. It is just so satisfying.

Friday, March 27, 2009,5:41 PM

Once again..

Today is an okay day. I am glad I had put one of my friend's words into mind 'dont think about it... whenever I am in that position I would try to make myself busy and do something, anything!' It really helped =] This morning I woke up at 8am, even though I was wide awake I didnt want to go to the bathroom and clean up myself. Instead I fall back into sleep. I once read an article from somewhere saying that when a person is in this position, they would either go through starvation, eat too much, sleeping too much or too little for its pain to heal. I guess I am one of them, I tend to sleep way too much in the morning, I guess pass 10hrs of sleep whenever I got a chance to. Everytime I told myself that I am over with the case, but somehow I was pullen back and think way too much about it; yes i deary missed that time. But thinking bout it in a mature way, it wasnt worth it at all. I tried to be mature, and handle this case in the proper way; yet I feel numb. It wasnt easy to erase you, and it sure wasnt easy to put you back on the list. Erasing you from all my accounts that has your name on it, is like erasing you from my world. Even though you had try to contact me, and so do I. But you and me knows that for now we cant really talk much. We shouldnt know anything about each other yet.. until maybe in the future if fate tells us that we can finally be friends again. This period of time is the most toughest period to get through, but I tried, holding my tears in and focus on something else. I am sure you and her is happily together now. I rember you told me that she would be here on the March, and you will be graduating as well. Therefore I congradulate your success. You finally made it to what you want, or maybe the case btw you and me isn't what you want. But I think for now, this is the best position to be in.
Anyways, enough of the nonsense. Woke up today, watched the final episodes of EU, did a little exercise cause I really needed it =x And then cleaned up my room. It has been awhile that I moved this room, cause I don't want to. We left great memories here, but I think it's time for a change. I really wanna buy new furniture to redecorate, or maybe add some stuff. Especially things I really need lols. Hopefully I'll start to save up some money and buy something. And hopefully I can get a car to drive to some department stores and get it right from the stores than buying it online.
Today is my only off day. I cant believe the day is almost gone... at least I didnt put my mind too much on you, jerk. I really want to hang out, but too bad everyone that I know is still in school or at work. So sad, not even my brother is at home to keep me comfy. I don't want to go out by myself, everytime I'm out alone, it doesnt feel the same. I like it when someone is beside me. At least someone I can talk to. Hm.. I don't know what the future holds, but I am hoping for some goodies. At least give me an internship, I am longing for that lols. Aii yaa... I use to always say that whenever I'm bored or have nothing to talk bout, but I think I need to change that phrase. Cause I remember you telling me that too.. I truly feel that forgiving maybe easy, but forgetting someone can be a lifetime thing. There is so much memory here and there, even when I head into manhattan there's memories left behind. I havent been there for sucha long time. Yes I am afraid to go back.. I hate this feeling. I cant wait till spring break and see my girlfriends. I think I need some happiness and spent some time with them to get me brighten up.

Thursday, March 26, 2009,11:22 PM

Boring Thursday

Today is so boring. There are so many things to do, yet I am pushing everything aside. Called a friend up, doing my regular boredom conversation. We manage to do one long conversation, after all the disconnections, hang ups, and re-dials that we made, i think we talked for more than an hour. Hmm.. well this friend of mine persuaded me to go to class, like finally I am not skipping this marketing class. The professor just don't care if you are there are not, and he doesn't teach at all but bullshit all the way through. Anyways, at least i was at somewhere doing something. After that i had a two hour gap before this music concert that I need to attend. It was god dam boring. The theme was saxophone and electronic. I don't care how good the performer is, but the digusting and annoying noise he made out of that saxophone all the way throughout the concert was very distracting; yet i still manage to fall asleep and stare into space. Great, now I don't know what I am going to write on this assignment, well.. either way I wouldnt know what to write, no interest at all. Afterwards got home very late at night and was starving!!

Tomorrow is another big day.. wonder what will I be doing. Hopefully something practical. Well.. that's it for now.. zzzzz ;b